fickle heart

why does my heart ache?

i don't even know what i want.
i long for something that even my heart isn't familiar with.

it's hard trying to fix something unseen.

it's hard when you don't know what this is.

yet you are holding on to it so tight

i lose track of what's real and what's not.

i felt lonely.

i felt tired.

exhausted.

my mind wondering to some unknown place.

searching for love i never felt.

searching for peace that's hard to believe

i'm running in circle.

deadly circle.

repeat each cycle, hoping it turns out different.

i have a fickle heart.

love so wild, it goes out of control.

either fully with you or nothing at all.